au fin fond d'une désolation .. : )

je ne trouve plus d'inspiration , moi qui aime tant écrire, peut-être que ma vie ne me passionne plus pour en parler !? ou bien est-ce autre chose ?
je passe mes journées a regarder ce carré de couleur dont les images bougent et qui abrutissent les gens comme moi qui ont pris le temps de les suivre. je bois du thé a toute heure ( pour ne pas vous mentir j’ose espérer que sa m'aidera a moins manger ), à me plaindre de ne pas avoir le corps que je veux ( Ce n'est pas de ma faute si tout les aliments descendent sur mes cuisses et que je mesure 1m57 pour 60kg ! ) , a écouter de la musique déprimante.. ect !
je plonge dans une folie certaine ! personne ne peux la comprendre, car elle me concerne a moi seule !!
je ne crois plus a rien  ( sauf aux biens-faits du chocolat =D )

Mais sinon .. Je vais Bien  =)

Broken Hearted Girl .. < / 3 [ Part 1 ]

You cannot hear me , You cannot feel me .. I Desperatly Need you !!
Tell me that I'm wrong , tell me that I'm a dreamer , tell me that my faith is too strong to believe in you after everything happend . But , What Can I do ?!
I won't believe U if U said U was sorry ..
I gave myself to you .. 
Maybe it's for the best , But I just can't see any good in this !!
Maybe I was wrong to thik that I could Keep U ,
I know that You're fine there without me ,  Please tell me That I'm lying ..
U've always been Honest to me , Scream To me that It's Over !
Pieces of my heart are missing .. What Don't U give it back to me ?
I'm in the way to freeze my feelings .. to finally  feel alive !
Now .. Oh Now , I'm like a zombie , dead but still breathing : )
Whom helped U when U felt bad ? Whom made U happy when U were sad ? Whom Calm U when U were mad ?
How do U feel now U broke all Ur promisses ?
I kept myself so hard to not tell U all that .. But I'm just not that strong !
I Should be ! Yeah I SHOULD BE ! 
I'm suffering and You're laughing , I'm in the dark and U're in the light..
I'm in the way to throw away my life .. Just because of U loser ?!
But I'll do it , Just to show U that I won't broke my promisses !!
I'm Better Than U ..



Do U know that feeling ?!
Losing somebody but Still belong to him ..

                    I'm Pathetic  =D



Only You , Can Understand : )


                                                       à Suivre ..